The List of Re-

Deviation by: RedmanDave

Listening too: The T.V. (Damn province.)

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Re-Direct:

Desperation, Lonliness

Sarcasm, Envy, Vices, Trauma

Re-Form:

Logic, Attitude, Mojo

Re-Evaluate:

Goals, Personality, Skills

Re-Construct:

Self-respect

Re-Plan:

Life, Plans, Objectives

Re-Awaken:

Passion, Drive, Talents

Re-Cycle:

Love, Thoughts, Self

One back-breaking step at a time...

Till I re-write my next list of Re-....

Cheers (^^,)

Flippin the page

Deviation by: Funshade

Listening too: Friends Forever - Vitamin C.

"As we go on, we remember.
All the times we spent together.
And as our lives change, from whatever.
We will still be, friends forever...
:,) "

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Its finally over. The 1st greuling year in USTe BSN done and done. No more sleepless nights of mindless reveiwing! No more killer rushes of finishing reports on time! No more cruel grilling from them almight Lab professors!

But even though I would'nt survive another knockout round like that, I'd glady go through it all again...

I never had any love for school. Never really was intent in doing anything with my life. Wasn't really paying attention to people who weren't part of my 'Inner Circle'. When I first came to UST, I thought it would be the same. I mean, the class I was part of didn't really look anything special. Typical classmates without anything interesting to say. Well, I sure would like someone to hit me right now because I was dead wrong.

My class, a.k.a. -wAñ+3N-, gave me a lot of warm memories. Spending time with those guys was the most fun I had with a class. Sadly, I won't be jamming with most of them ever again since I failed to make the cut-off in BSN. Although I can feel the tears start trickling down my cheek, I guess its all right since I have memories to look back to.

The whole year was very meaningful to my life. Loads of the memories I'll definitely enjoi looking back at. Lots of friends I'll never forget.... \(^o^\)

This year is the most memorable page of my life, but be that as it may I still need to flip the page... and move on.

CHEERS TO CLASS 1-10 BATCH 2006-2007!!!

Kita kita na lang sa states ^o^

Economics

Art by: tangledweb

Listening too: Enter the Psycho - Hellsing OST

Moik: BUY MORE MONEY!!!

Quote: "If you think in pennies, you'll get pennies.

If you think dollars, you'll get dollars."

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Tis time to write about something else aside from my pathetic life. xD

Cash. People say love makes the world go round. I'd like to add something to that. Love for $MONEY$ makes the world go round. I know I'm going to get a bucket of crap from everyone for adding that one word in one of the most cliched lines in history but I'd rather swim in the gunk than not say it at all.

I mean, its one of the top or even the top 1 reason why most of my countrymen are throwing their dreams away as they enroll in Nursing courses. I dont have anything againts the course but its the reason thats really shovin bamboo shoots up my arse.

Basic Phillipino psychology.

'Must work for money. Must work a job that gets a lot of money. Must get money!'

The stories of how immigrants working as bedfolders / asswipers earning a ton of cash in the process is the answer! Glitter AND Gold! How can anyone look away from that!?

'YES! I SHALL BECOME A NURSE! FOR THE LOVE OF MONEY I! WILL! BECOME! A! NURSE!'

Thats how most of us Phillies are thinkin including me. Quite sad but let me tell you, it sounds worth it.

Lets move on to other topics concerning the cash cuz I'm getting sick of poking around the Nurse = $$$ subject.

Credit cards. Never EvEr! get a credit card in the Phillipines. People here are very good at swiping things and the bank is where it all goes. Banks are evil. Whenever you make a purchase using that peice of shiny plastic your going to be digging another hole in your own grave. Why? Cuz if you fail to pay it 'on time' then your as good as screwed due to the many alterations in the debt matrix. How can you NOT pay it 'on time'?! Well, your on time if you send the check/payment to the bank 10 DAYS IN ADVANCE! Any later and the risk of the bank telling you...

'Oh I'm sorry Ser/Ma'am! I tink joor check/payment gut lost n da mail! Joo nuw owe da bank joor soul! este... stuff! Tenk joo and hab e nice die =D'

Yes. Its true. Those bastards do that. A lot. The shitty thing about it is no matter how much one whines, complains and threatens there's absolutely nothing that can be done to reverse the process. Its fucked up. Quite.

ATM for the win.

In the states though, it pretty much works the same way except for the '10 days advance' thing because most of the money houses there are legit. So I think its safe to have 1 credit card but anymore and your soon going to be buried in utang.

Money money money. What can we be without the greens eh? No food, no education, yadda, blah, etc. Money money money.

I dont think I need to be a rocket scientist to be able to understand the basics of economics. How in the end we buy more money. The endless recycle of the lifeblood that keeps nations alive.

The buying and selling and cheating.

The stashing, saving and splurging.

The stealing, giving and receving.

Oh I think I get the gist of it. Perhaps maybe all too well.

I'd go deeper into the topic but I'll just save it for someone who cares xD

Lets not forget though, money cant buy love. Only money with love can buy love.

... or not. Whatever.

Lets be smart with our money people!

Cheer$ !!!

Chickening out

Art by: lexidh

Listening to: The Remedy - Jason Mraz

Moik: Aaarrrggghhh!!!... Damn.

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Here we go again. Yes, tis high time to chicken out of something which is killing me softly. Well, not really softly since I can feel the nicotine burn caves in my once shiny pink lungs but I think you get the picture.

Smoking. Ah yes the death sticks. The smooth flow of kretek as it infiltrates my bronchial tree. The refreshing rush of dopamine as a result of my brain going on overdrive. The quickstep thumping of my heart as I breath in and out. The icky goo of residue that clogs my aveoli before what little oxygen diffuses into my bloodstream. Sigh, yeah, I'm gonna miss it.

Then I think of all the kids in my compound who're running around with perfect health and imagine what my second hand smoke must be doing to them. I dont think I'll miss it that much anymore.

Well I guess I have still have a little time to enjoy my last two packs of grade A Gudang Garam before I throw the rest of my stash away. What am I saying? I'm saying that I'm not quitting now but rather on March. 15. March 15 be my chicken out date. The day I finally put my ligther down and put the cigs in their proper place. My mouth. Kidding, I ment the trash.

I never did think of myself as a quitter on anything but I'll make an exeption on this particular situation.

Now that I'm putting that vice aside I wonder if I should drop drinking as well. After carefully thinking it through I come to the conclusion that I wont ever be cured of my booze guzzling. Thankfully, my liver doesn't think it can take much more which degrades me to the status of 'Social Drinker'. Hey, I'll take what I can get.

A week before I break a bond with Teej. Maybe I'll puff another one when I see him agian... assuming he also hasn't chickened out.

I'd also like to thank most of Wanten for their ribbing on my case specially Hans, Thes, Charlie and Izza.

Now I'll put up Mr. Snuggles who will serve as my mascot in my attempt to finally be done with this hazardous hobby.

Deviation by: Kimdeal

Help me save myself! =D

Cheers mates!

xD

Recoil

Deviation by: Ladyfish

Listening to: 3 Libras - A Perfect Circle

Moik: Its all good...

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Alright. I'm a bit numb but completely out of concentration is kinda new to my system so bear with me. So how do I begin another tragic tale of absolute breakdown? With a smile of course. =,)

I guess I should have adapted to it by now. The crushing defeat I mean. But I dont thing I ever will. Hell, I dont think anyone could for that matter. The abrupt wave of disappointment coupled with the piercing realization that all was for naught. The sickening hangover that follows the next sunrise and leaves you retarded for the rest of the day. Like all conditions it'll teasingly linger for a while till it finally passes. Nothing compares to this and nothing ever will.

On the recoil is the most confused state I'll ever be. Imagain yourself struggling to make it to a feast of dreamfood and remember all the hardwork and sacrifices you had to make to get there.

Now visualize you being dragged away from that buffet. Struggling to get back to the table as forces beyond your comprehension slowly pull you away. Desperately scrambling your mind for a way to get loose. Sadly wondering to yourself what it could've tasted like. What it could've felt like...

A light. A good sprint. And I was somehow able to shake of the worst of it.

Its funny at first. The bitter irony of how I'm experienced at wordplay. What I confidently say to people. How I cockily advise them with all the wisdom I could dig up. The way I'm able to clearly relay my thoughts and how I'm unable to do so to myself. Unable to relieve myself of the nauseating noise and heartfelt supernova's going off in my mind. The painful booms chaining off in my chest. Its not funny anymore.

I point at the mirror and examine the way the reflection points back. How its silently blaming myself for this weak situation I'm in. Quietly naming out the reasons for this unexpected failure. Crying on the inside for involving it in my tradegy. Weird, yes. Insightful, definitely.

Heh, well...

Went out for an hour over to Junjun's for a talk over a game of chess. Lost 2 times straight. Distracted. But I knew that guy would pull through for me. Him and his sister sured cleared that smog polluting my gut. Sigh, good friends.

To the callous and cautions I wish them strength and urge them to take the opportunity when they come to the leaps of faith in their lives.

To the daredevils and riskbreakers I salute their eagerness and wish them more fun in their thrill seeking.

To everyone else, well, there IS no everyone else. Its either your chilling on the safe side or riding the fire enjoying the fleeting euphoria.

Me? This is the time I usually tuck my head back into my shell and wait for someone to pick me up to take a peek. But right now? I'll be holding my head up high because I've grown out of being destroyed. Chin up is the way to go!

I'm sure I'll recoil soon enough. Not like this is the first time it happened.

Cheers mates! Remember that not everything in the world is fucked up and cold :)

Friends

Pic. edited by: Seraph_Keesha

Listening too: How to save a life - The Fray

Moik: I'd hit every-damn-one of 'em

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Okay. So what sort of faggoty escapade of a post am I up too now? A simple faggoty escapade of post is what! So lets get to it. Those three guys in with me in that picture? Their my best friends. People who I'd lay my life on the line for. People who without their involvement in my miserable life would've left me emoishly empty. But hell, that would'nt stop me from kicking each of their balls in. Bastards.

Lemme give a quick describe on each of these idiots. From right to left.

Francis Canlas: I call him Las. Genius at everything. Bully. Selfish. My big brother.

David 'Junjun' Or: Cheeky. Smooth talker. Competitive. Stubborn. Bored. My rival.

Tyron Teylan: Weirdo. Vice made human. Chick magnet. My bestfriend. My Yin brother.

Yep, those kids mean the world to me. As Teej would say it, 'Family. Friends. Women. Self.'. Wait a minute, why the hell am I making a ghey post like this anyway?! Oh yeah I remember now.

Its all Teej's fault. That guy's stuck with me through 7 solid years of enduring bloodstained friendship. Now he's leaving for the states. Again. This time I'm sure he aint gonna be back anytime soon.

Him leaving made me realize how I take all my friends for granted. Yes, I take EVERYONE! for granted. So before its too late and they all start disappearing soon, I'ma make amends starting right now.

I'm sorry. E-hugs and handshakes all around!

Never take anyone for granted. It'll bite you in the ass one day and its going to take a shitload of time before it starts loosening its jaw. People need people. Only a jackass would say something like 'I dont need help!'. Everybody needs help! So help me help you because I seriously want to share what my inner circle has shared with me, good genuine unalduterated friendship.

I dont have any much more to say so I'll just quote the chorus of the song which I've been listening too over and over again for the last 10 mins.

"Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would've stayed up with you all night had I known, how to save a life."

These guys saved mine, for that, I'll be eternally grateful =D

I guess I do got a little more to share but I'm sure you got the msg. So no more mushy for now xD

Cheers guys! Make your friends feel special cuz they are!.... They really are... ^^

S.A.D.

Art by: Plusone

Listening to: Yellow - Tanya Chua

Moik: Shoot! Fiiire!

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S.A.D. Single's Awareness Day! The day I used to call "Valentines"! The make or break day! No more!

Woot! The I used to put a lot of energy and love into everything I did for that someone who caught my eye when this time of the year came. I got tired of it and tried something different! Instead of carefully purchasing and preparing a few choice items for that special someone, I bought MYSELF a kickass plush Turtle! Pathetic right?! And yet I'm still laughing my ass off about it! Hah!

Sigh, the good jive fades all too quickly though as I'm reminded of all the fuzzy wuzzy in the past. Cant help BUT be reminded. *sniff* Good thing mah tootle is squishy enough to hugabuse.

Well screw the past right?! And screw this useless post! LOL!

I wish everyone with a special someone a Happy Valentines Day though...

And hope that today gave them a refresh of how much they love and yadda and blah their partner...

Cheers mates! >:D