Fake
It's time I went back to practicing an art which I have been perfecting these past few years. A technique which I involuntarily developed whenever I was focused on. The ability to flawlessly masquerade the lies from the truth and vice-versa. Now I need to exercise it again in order to save myself from the mess I dived into. Yes, 13 days from now I shall once again immerse my psyche in the clear pool of falsehood so I may emerge new, safe and confident.
My decision for this... "underground debue" has already been stated. I am going to take this seriously for my actions in the next few months will dictate my fate for the rest of the year. Frankly, it's not looking good. I must take the initiative before I'm forever condemned to the status of outcast. History cannot repeat itself now, not when I'm so close to acheiveing the truth of who I really am.
This course of action may seem like a cheap escape plan because it IS one. I need to run away from myself for my own good. I must destroy the pillar that upholds my beliefs. All shall be made well as soon as possible but for now... I am going to silently wallow behind this illogical facade...
This phase which I am about to undergo shall require all my physical, mental and spiritual energies inorder for me to pull it off... I pray that it doesn't backfire and crush me before I catch my secondwind... Sigh, the drama of life... however I look at it, optimistic or pessimistic... its just so... flippin.
13 till I Fake it. Watch out for another me and I hope you like him.
My decision for this... "underground debue" has already been stated. I am going to take this seriously for my actions in the next few months will dictate my fate for the rest of the year. Frankly, it's not looking good. I must take the initiative before I'm forever condemned to the status of outcast. History cannot repeat itself now, not when I'm so close to acheiveing the truth of who I really am.
This course of action may seem like a cheap escape plan because it IS one. I need to run away from myself for my own good. I must destroy the pillar that upholds my beliefs. All shall be made well as soon as possible but for now... I am going to silently wallow behind this illogical facade...
This phase which I am about to undergo shall require all my physical, mental and spiritual energies inorder for me to pull it off... I pray that it doesn't backfire and crush me before I catch my secondwind... Sigh, the drama of life... however I look at it, optimistic or pessimistic... its just so... flippin.
13 till I Fake it. Watch out for another me and I hope you like him.
posted by Khail at 8/31/2006 08:57:00 PM
2 Comments:
that debue of yours is perplexing... I bet wanten will think you have a multiple personality disorder or something.O,o Oh well, I'll support ya :)
Dude... if you further FAKE yourself, how can you find your true self when you're already on the verge of discovering it? Seems to me you're going to have a hiatus of some sort. Oh, well... I guess you have your reasons. And yeah... "Flippin" is patented to me. I sure do hope you don't "masquerade" when I'm around there by December.
You still need to call me in New York.
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